. Spill It Out .

nice vintage tone :)

have been kinda emo lately
maybe it's because i've been so bored at home
maybe it's because i'm going to have period soon
i'm not emo all the time
at least it's not when i got things to do
when i'm trying to have some peace for my mind
it's the time that all these emotions sink in

i wanna spill it all out
i really hope i can
but i hold back
i said : it's nothing, i'm fine, i'm ok
yes, it's what i hope i was
i wish that i'm fine so i no need to make anyone worries
yupe and it's actually not biggies at all
just that...yea like i said before
i just wanna express because i'm emo at the moment

even then only i realize
blog wasn't a spot for me to express all the things as well
maybe deep down
everyone needs secrets within ourselves, no?

i'm so insecure, perhaps
i have always indicate myself as a insecure & indecisive person
i know many don't think so
but i think i'm one when i met some critical junctions

i said i don't care
i said i won't mind
but do i really think that way?
i'm not sure
maybe it's what i wish i was thinking
should i deserved all these?
why can't i have something better?
why will i feel upset?
why will i feel that i have been neglected sometimes?
why will i feel that i've never earn any respect from them?
why i don't feel that my existence has been appreciated?
why will i think this way?
is it because i'm demanding too much?
am i wrong to think this way?
am i?

lotsa question marks huh?
ya maybe i'm that kind of people
who's more towards implosive emotions
got anything like this?
but anyway
i'm still a happy-go-lucky one
yes always stay optimistic
life is about looking forward right?
there's really nothing like Curious case
and for sure i'l be fine after a sleep
don't doubt on my EQ
i got high marks on it :P