. Hesitation .

untitled :)

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argh my holiday is so boring
just almost the same routines of
sleep, eat, watching dramas, take care Cheryl
and yaada yaada yaada everyday

i haven't start my CI work yet
i know i shouldn't be like that
i hate CI because of the lecturer
and the worse thing is
i start to hesitate about my direction because of him too
i started to doubt whether
am i that good?
and the main thing that i concern about now is
am i actually that suitable to be a graphic designer?
ok i know that study graphic design
don't mean that you must be one
there's actually many kind of positions
that fit for students who graduate as a graphic designer
but for so many years since i decided it
to be a graphic designer is like a comfirmed path for me
i don't even think of any others job that may possible for me
i questioned myself
if i don't want to be a graphic designer
then what else can i be?
maybe a fashion designer?
my friend work as a fashion designer after she graduated
and she said she really learned all the things from zero again
but she like fashions so i think she'll be happy there
but for me i don't think i can be a fashion designer lol

i would love to be a photographer actually
but so sad to said that i haven't improve my skill
after my photography subject ended last term
actually i can be a freelance photographer for now
but i'm not confidence with my skill yet
but i swear i'll improve my skills
maybe i can really be a freelance photographer someday

i would like to be a designer that just do the packaging
not sure whether there's any positon like this in this industry
just doing the packaging design? packaging designer? haha
but i like to do packaging loads and
i feel glad with my last term packaging class grade

not sure what i would like to work as
maybe i will only change my decision
for not being a graphic designer
when i'm going to graduate
& find out that it really not that suitable for me?
but one thing that i'm sure about is that
i hope i won't need to do any
Corporate Identity works in the future
ya i admit i hate it
and why i hate it?
this thanks to our dear Mr. Joseph
he make me hate CI & him too grrr
and those Stationaries + handbook + bla blaa blaa

anyway i just want to said that
my holiday is so boring *sob*

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